Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Maybe I can bake these next week. Check out the recipe here. and hang around for a rockin' Vegan blog.
So it finally hit me that the semester is done. I guess it was the 2 hour brunch I had with three people from school that I enjoy spending time with but don't get to see for extended periods of time, even though I share an office with two of them. Ha!
I also started training my replacement at the Union. I will miss working there, although I really don't have anything to do right now. My last day will be January 9. I have worked there for over 2 years now. Everyone there was so welcoming and warm, I hope that I am able to find a new group of people like that once I move on to my PhD program. Cuz lord knows that is not the way I would describe my other group of coworkers. (For a great example of that group check out this previous post). Don't get me wrong, they are not all like that, its just I like the people I work with at the Union better overall.
I have one week left to study for the GRE. Math book, here I come! All I need is to increase my score by 110 points. I am also reviewing some basic prefixes and suffixes of words to increase my verbal score.
Feeling fat. All my professional looking pants feel tight which is a problem since the wind is pretty cold right now and skirts are no bueno in this weather. (sing song) Someone needs to start hitting the treadmill...
I have to go get an oil change tomorrow. My car is starting to act and sound funny.
Nothing makes you feel more incompetent than trying to stamp the edges of an academic journal with the name of the library. I press in as carefully as possible but when I pull the stamp off, you can barely read the name. You gotta love service assignments in grad school. At least I ordered a new stamp pad for the library. It was delivered yesterday. Maybe that will help.
Still have to finish Christmas shopping. Though I was close to done, turns out not even close.
Tamale making in less that a week. Yay!
Even though school is over, I am still having trouble falling asleep. So tonight, after I finish cooking for a potluck dinner tomorrow, studying for the GRE and picking up my disaster of a room, I will try a hot bath with a "Dream On" ballistic from Lush.
Last thought, is anyone reading my blog anymore? Feels like I am simply typing for my own amusement. Leave a comment, will ya?
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
In other news, pages left until the end of the semester. Yes, my countdown is in pages rather than hours to go. Time is immaterial at this point.
Tuesday, December 09, 2008
I know there are grammatical errors in this post, I am very upset about this whole situation.
On one hand, I understand that unfair labor practices must cease and the only way to make a strike work is for all members to participate. And the service that TAs, GAs and ISAs provide to the university is invaluable. We teach basic courses for our departments, the ones that generate the most Full Time Enrollment which sets our budget allocation by the university each semester, we run lab sections which are required for the courses and we grade papers for full time professors. And that is just a partial list of our duties. In this economy, a tuition waiver really helps us provide the duties we are hired for AND be good students, the main reason we are on campus. Without fee waivers, may of us are forced to take second, sometimes third jobs. Either that or depend on someone else to help us pay out living expenses. Take a look at me, I live at home to save on living expenses (bless my parents for being willing and able to assist me) AND I have a second job on campus.
On the other hand, I think it is kind of a jackass move to ask for a tuition waiver during a budget crisis. The CSU's stance is that they cannot grant the tuition waiver as it will drastically cut the amount of money coming in through student fees during these tough economic times.
But the part that is really getting me is my sense of duty to my students. Those who teach Tuesday/Thursday classes are fine, finals begin on Thursday. They are done with instruction. But I teach Monday/Wednesday/Friday. And I have 9 students giving their last speech of the semester. If only they had waited one more day! Is it fair to these students to hand them over to someone else to grade their speech when I tell them I am looking for improvement over the course of the semester and then am not there to evaluate how far they came over the course of 15 weeks? Especially since the rest of their classmates got the benefit of my evaluation for this last speech, the hardest speech we require them to take.
I am preparing for the strike, have lesson plans ready and I can go in class on Wednesday to explain what is happening and say goodbye. But it is really bothering me. I really like my students, they have been so wonderful this semester. Everyone who has observed or interacted with my class has commented on how unusually interactive and attentive they are. They are great kids. We have so much fun in class, we spend a lot of time laughing. They are so nervous when they speak, it is fair to throw them a curve ball right before they give their final speech? How am I serving the students by stepping out at the last minute?
But that's the point, isn't it?
Friday, December 05, 2008
Saturday, November 29, 2008
TO THE TUNE OF $140.00
Yes, that is right, I just signed up to retake the exam and my pocket book is hurting. I also think I need to reschedule it because I signed up for an 8 am test. What was I thinking? But the next best option is 4 pm on Christmas Eve...
The crap I do without even the guarantee of a positive outcome...
So I went and rescheduled the exam, for December 24 at 12:00pm. Yes, that's right, Christmas Eve. And I paid $50 for the privilege.
sigh - why didn't I catch that taking an exam at 8 am is a bad idea for me in the first place and save myself some money. !@#$*&^*
Thursday, November 27, 2008
This year is especially troubling to me because of a conversation I had yesterday at work.
The conversation started out great, there is another student who's research interests align with mine and we had a great conversation about racial stereotypes. Then a third coworker jumped in. This is where the conversation fell apart. I don't have the energy to write about everything that happened but here are a couple excerpts of her highly offensive and racist comments.
During a conversation explaining the difference between using the term Asian and Oriental:
her: I just don't see it. I've read a lot of literature and Oriental has never seemed negative to me.
That's the whole point you moron. It is presented as something non-offensive when in fact it is. Literature, especially main stream literature continues to perpetuate this term as acceptable as a form of dominant hegemonic ideology. Me: Well, that's literature.
Later, after the conversation had shifted to the use of derogatory terms and their connotations:
Me: It's like using the term, 'I've been gyped.'
Her: I don't know what that refers to.
Me: That's okay, a lot of people don't. Gyp is a shorten version of Gypsy. It is referring to the fact that Gypsies are seen as thieves, liars, cheats and dishonest.
Her: Well, compared to our culture, they are.
(not my inside voice)
I left the office shortly after that, really worked up and super angry. Such blatant racism. I have so rarely run into it face to face that it is a shock to the system. I am use to covert forms of racism (also not acceptable), but this... And she didn't even realize how racist she was being, but that's white privilege for you. And I have to take a class with her next semester. Someone will have to hold me back if she says stupid stuff during this class. Our common class? Feminist Perspectives.
Her other class? Intercultural Communication.
I am very glad that I already took that class so I can miss her contributions to those discussions. I imagine they would go something like the conversation that occurred yesterday.
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Very busy right now, trying to finish up school, just got back from a major conference in San Diego, working on my thesis and trying to apply to PhD programs all at the same time. With finals rapidly approaching, i usually make myself a CD to get through the week (entitled Finals FA 08). Here is the playlist currently helping me get through all this:
1. Intro from Pretty Good Year 2006 (Party Girl Presents)
2. Into the Void - NIN
3. Nothing Fails [Nevins Mix] - Madonna
4. Possession - Sarah McLachlan
5. Devil Inside - INXS
6. Sick - Sneakerpimps
7. She's Your Cocaine - Tori Amos
8. Elderly Woman Behind the Counter in a Small Town - Pearl Jam
9. Marianne - Tori Amos
10. I Kissed a Girl - Katy Perry
11. I Dare You to Move - Switchfoot
12. Everything's Not Lost - Coldplay
13. Ain't No Other Man - Christina Aguilera
14. Candyman - Christina Aguilera
15. Move Your Feet - Junior Senior
I know, pretty random. Some songs were selected at random by Party Shuffle. Others have been stuck in my head for a while, so what can you do?
Hope your tunes are jamming too and keeping your feet moving through the last few months of 2008.
Friday, November 07, 2008
I have been trying really hard to stop venting what ever comes to my mind when ever I read something that annoys me. Unfortunately, I have not been that successful in not 'having a nutty' as I like to call it.
Most recent nutty? This morning, I received a pretty condescending email from the department secretary telling all the faculty that they need to clean their leftovers out of the fridge so it doesn't smell.
Now, I know it is not directed completely at me, but I could not help myself. I hate been spoken to like I am a child. There is no need to take that tone. And I tried to figure out why I reacted that way after my rant in the faculty office and that's what I came up with. Now if I can just work through my reaction before I actually have my nutty, that would be progress.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Monday, September 29, 2008
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Thursday, September 18, 2008
You Should Follow Judaism
You believe that there is only one God, but you don't get too dogmatic about it.
Instead, you simply try to live the most ethical life you can.
Religious holidays and cultural identity are very important to you.
You enjoy following religious traditions and find meaning in them.
Last night for the second time, a clerk in a store talked to me in Spanish. The first time, the clerk apologized, stating she was on autopilot. I guess my blank stare was a tip off that I barely understood her. Last night, the clerk spoke to me in Spanish the entire time. I thought I greeted her in English but... Luckily, sales transactions are simple enough that I can generally follow what the clerks are saying.
I don't know how I feel about this. On one hand, I am proud to be thought of as a fluent Spanish speaker. On the other hand, aren't the clerks making a snap decision based upon my physical appearance?
Last night, I finally found a dress to wear to the wedding I will be attending this weekend.
I cannot believe it, the old gang will be together again! It has been a long time since we had one of our potluck dinners together. I miss them all, T3, Meesh, Ms. B, Ms. S, BJ & Chrispy. Now we have the addition of two partners as well. (Is the plural of spouses, spice?) Why is it as we get older, it is so hard to gather a group of people together? And we are not even that old! Between exhausting jobs, commuting, heavy school loads for three of us, and two people living out of town... it makes me sad. I use to organize these dinners because these people are important to me and I wanted to be sure that I got to see them at least once a month. I never thought that was too much to ask. But the dinners kept getting further & further apart until there were only 4 people involved.
I am super excited and glad that we are seeing each other for a happy occasion. We will have to be sure to get a picture of all of us, the original gang.
All the media and multiple bloggers are talking about Sarah Palin. (if you missed the SNL opening skit this last weekend, you have to see it. It was great). I have only this to say and then I will post no more on this topic.
I am sick to death of all the media reports and articles that state women are flocking to the Republican party just because they have a female candidate. Hello! Where were all these reports when Hillary was running? Is our society really that backwards that we vote solely based on gender? Really? I mean, REALLY? I believe in gender equality, the same society rules that constrain women also constrain men and transgendered individuals. If we truly believe in gender equality as a nation, a candidate's gender should make no difference, we should be voting on their qualifications as a leader and on their stances on the issues. That being said, I am not happy about ANY of our choices for U.S. President or V.P. There were better choices.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Saturday, September 06, 2008
Can you limp on both legs?
Awake - 22 hours
On campus working - 19 hours
On my feet walking and climbing stairs - 12 hours straight
Everything aches from the knee down and I have the feeling that it will be worse tomorrow. Dropped 2.5 pounds in 2 days; don't feel dehydrated and I know what that feels like. Went to bed at 3 but work up at 6:30 today, fully functioning. I will allow myself to nap whenever and am taking Tylenol for legs.
Sunday, August 31, 2008
1: Type in "[your name] needs" in the Google search:
M needs... to tell him what really happened, but will he listen? ...
first picture that came up when I google image searched my name that wasn't a half naked super model
2: Type in "[your name] looks like" in Google search:
M looks like she got her chin on a "buy one, get three free" deal
Strange enough, this entry came from some one describing this entry.
3: Type in "[your name] does" in Google search:
What does the name M mean? M, which is a variant of Maria, is Latin-derived and means: star of the sea.
4: Type in "[your name] hates" in Google search:
M|Hates|You|@|The|Lemonade|Diaries...and everywhere else too ...
5: Type in "[your name] goes" or "..has gone" in Google search
M goes on the date ... from Hell!
6: Type in "[your name] loves" in Google search:
MySpace profile for M Love with pictures, videos, personal blog, interests, information about me and more.
7: Type in "[your name] eats" in Google search:
M Eats Efferdent by m :] Watch it on MySpace Videos.
8: Type in "[your name] has" in Google search:
MySpace profile for M has a car. with pictures, videos, personal blog, interests, information about me and more.
9: Type in "[your name] wants" in Google search:
Jul 28, 2008 ... M's wants board to hear the music. In the eyes of M's Ristorante owner Attilio Marini, there's nothing unsuitable about a disc ...
Runner up because it is supper funny: M begging for some "chon chon" ... Choose the language ... [You Tube Video]
A: Christa has the best stuff on her blog
B: Damn MySpace... a lot of the answers came from there. Bleh!
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
*Had lunch with someone from another office today. Awkward conversation but yummy salad from a new place on campus.
*Got to start a phone conversation with, "Ewww! I have chicken!" today. Sweet.
*Visited with big bro and dad today, three of us on campus at once! Awesome!
*Had a fantastic meeting with my adviser and got all jazzed to work on my thesis. Then left the book I needed to read at work and lost my motivation. Oh well, I will work on it tomorrow. 2 pages before I come home! (I'm at about 1/2 a page right now).
*Got to show my big bro my office today and skip the really long line in the bookstore to buy new books.
Got to go to bed. Nite-nite.
Monday, August 25, 2008
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Friday, August 08, 2008
You are The High Priestess
Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.
The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
Monday, July 28, 2008
I started looking into PhD programs this month, seriously looking into them and I know I shouldn't, but I keep looking at what it is going to cost me. California has one of the lowest costs to attend college and since I am a residence, I am in an even lower cost bracket.
By attending Cal State Universities for both my B.A. and M.A., I figure that each of my degrees cost about $10,000.
Now in contrast, for one year at a couple of the universities I have been looking at:
$9,481 UC Irvine
$10,178/$14,336 UT Austin (depends on number of units)
$11,198 UC Santa Cruz
$21,714 Univ. of Illinois, Urbana-Champaign
$29,661 Northwestern University
Most PhD programs offer full funding for their students, which is part of the reason it is so competitive but still....jeez a lou!
So that is part of the reason I have been so distracted and not posting lately. I have a lot on my mind.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
A trip to Sonic
Slowly, very slowly reading for my class this summer. Should finish article #3 tonight and that means I have to/want to finish 4 tomorrow. I plan to get up at my regular time and read my heart out. It is getting a little better with each article. Now I just have to write up everything I have read as well...
An afternoon movie
Rock Band! My new obsession! For this game alone I would buy a playstation 3.
I sang, played the drums (horribly - not my strong suit) and played the bass guitar.
No actual pics from our game but the above one is a bit like our drummer, Quinn. My bass player had a bright pink Joan jet cut for the majority of the game until I mixed it up and ended up with a shag cut that was half bright teal and half moss green, very fetching. So much fun and so much harder than it looks. Especially when I realize that I don't know the majority of the songs and the ones I do know, I don't know as well as I think I did. although I have to say, this game is easier than the Magic mic that I used Wednesday night at work.
Speaking of, I better get to bed, er...read some more before I settle in for the night. One more day, que triste! I am a little nervous about the flight home but bought some less drowsy(WTF!) Dramamine to be on the safe side. Fingers Crossed!
Friday, July 11, 2008
Long story short cuz it is time for me to go to bed, the last 24 hours have been filled with new friends - finally met Titan, good food, Mr S(for lack of a better name) is a fantastic cook and we hit a great Indian buffet for lunch, (and Sonic! it did not disappoint for a great drink damn it!). I also slept like a log last night, slept in this morning and took a long nap this afternoon. I think I am making up for entire past semester. I am also getting homework done, believe it or not. I am finally on page 20 of 24 for my second article. Also reading Nickle and Dimed since the author will be speaking on campus this coming semester.
Life is good. I am enjoying this trip and may even return feeling refreshed, a change from my usual out of town sojourns. Helps that I am not running between lectures like at conferences. Any who, will hopefully get some pictures to post, got to get to be so I can go out on the town manana.
Sunday, July 06, 2008
Saturday, July 05, 2008
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your music library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool
1. Opening Credits: Rehab/ Amy Winehouse
2. Waking Up: mother Revolution/ Tori Amos
3.First Day At School: Then We Are Decided/ Jesus Chris Superstar Soundtrack
4.Falling In Love: Blue Skies/ BT feat. ori Amos
5.Fight Song: Bullets/ Creed
6.Breaking Up: Jarhead/ Immaculate Machine
7.Prom: Agent Orange/ Tori Amos
8.Life: Fotografia/ Juanes & Nelly Furtado
9.Mental breakdown: Both Hands/ Ani DiFranco
10.Driving: Let It Roll/ Train
11.Flashback: GirlTalk/ TLC
12.Getting back together: O Morro Nao Tem Vez/ Stan Getz
13.Wedding: Waiting for You/ Seal
14.Birth of Child: General Joy/ Tori Amos
15.Final Battle: Complication/ NIN
16.Death Scene: Scarlet’s Walk/ Tori Amos
17.Funeral Song: Break It Down Again/ Tears for Fears
18.End Credits: I Like Dirt/ Red Hot Chili Peppers
Monday, June 30, 2008
Monday, June 23, 2008
Sunday, June 22, 2008
Sunday, May 25, 2008
The children of the Pérez family and their pet chicken bathe daily in this irrigation canal next to where their father, Maxim, picks oranges. No signage is posted. When the parents were asked if they were concerned with the possibility of pesticides in the water, the children's mother, who works in a local packing plant, shrugged a simple, "No." Migrant workers have a 59 percent higher risk of contracting leukemia, and a 69 percent higher risk for stomach cancer than other Hispanics living in California - rates that have been directly attributed to their exposure to pesticides and other chemicals used in their work.
The photographs and text are by Rick Nahmias, from his book The Migrant Project: Contemporary California Farm Workers, published by the University of New Mexico Press. For a gallery of images and more information, see http://themigrantproject.com
This story was sent to me through one of the news groups that I subscribe to. It made me think back to when we were young and my brother, sister and I swam in the drainage ditch across from our house in Dinuba, a small farming community North of Bakersfield. It was only for three years but it makes me think. Something so small can make a difference in your life.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Last week was finals week. I gave a final presentation in my Performance Studies Class on Tuesday night and took a two-hour essay exam on Thursday night, late (It was bad but it is done, so thats okay - I passed the class). On Wednesday I gave both of my finals to my classes and was able to grade the exams, finalize their semester grades and post them to the school website. I then make a copy of the posted grades, my grade book and the final exam and turned them in to both the department office and my advisor. By Friday, all I had to do was work at my other job and get really for graduation.
You see, a lot of the other TAs I teach with are graduating this year. In fact, there are only three of us returned to teach, the other 9 will be new to the program. So I went to a department graduation party on Friday night at Skinny’s in NoHo and a friend’s party on Saturday night. Monday I went back to work but only for three days. Tuesday night I spent making graduation gifts for some of my fellow students (I’ll post pictures a little later on). Wednesday was the actual graduation. After work, one the returning TAs, Nicole, picked me up from work and we went and had an early dinner. It was nice, we talked about school, both as professors and students – we have not had the chance to talk this year and it was nice to feel like we were creating a bond. Then we went to school and joined the other TA, Christa in the department library and put the finishing touches on our gifts, gift wrapped them and signed all the cards. We put the gifts in the TA office at each person’s desk and waited for them all to arrive and graduate.
There was a lot of picture taking, lots of visiting and they all loved their gifts. We walked with the graduates to the lawn where graduate was taking place, waited until they started heading towards the stage and then headed back to the department office to hang out until graduation was over and we could have fun. the three of us played around on the computers and talked until graduation was over and we all headed home since all the graduates were doing things with their families.
Today, I slept in and have been straightening up at home. It is so nice to do everything at my own pace, no rushing out the door for something or having to make sure that I left enough time for me to do my homework. I finally get to do all the things I have been wanting to do but haven’t had time for. You know, really exciting things like filing my receipts, reorganizing my sock drawer, ,my t-shirt drawer, my PJ drawer…you get the picture. I’ve also been slowly dusting my room and taking breaks whenever I want to, to read my new book.
Every semester, as I get near the end, I go on to Amazon.com and order myself a mindless novel as a reward for finishing the semester and so that I can read a new book that has nothing to do with school, I usually order 1 or 2 and make sure that they will arrive after I have finished my last assignment. This semester has been so rough that I ordered 4 books. 1 arrived Tuesday and the other 3 arrived yesterday. So I have already finished one of the short story collections and have worked my way though about half of the other one.
Ah, this is the life…I have thrown out clothes that are long past their prime, pulled stuff from my closet to donate because it is in really good shape but I’ve worn it once or never (a lot of stuff still has tags on it) and set aside a couple tops that I think a friend of mine will like. I had a good lunch that I had the time to prepare for myself and have been sure to drink enough liquids as well.
A good, good day. And I feel very good. This is the life…
Thursday, May 15, 2008
Friday, May 02, 2008
For claiming that I would be off the face of the earth for the month,I sure blogged a lot for the month of April. If I think back on it, I realize that I would post when I was taking a break from the ridiculous amount of work I had while at school.
Any who... Short post today. I published a line of a poem constructed from magnet poetry a while ago here. I have added some random lines since then but have been unable to complete the last line.
I don't claim to be a prolific poet like Christa, after all these are magnets that catch my fancy as I am staring at the metal filing cabinet that my desk faces at work. Here it is, leave your suggestions in the comment section to fill in the blank:
they wax and shine the red sky yet cannot take it with them,
raw power & beauty a thousand purple winters,
ask to use delicate fiddle behind the moment,
we think she could watch through diamond vision,
languid shadows scream of _________,
So just for fun....